New Year’s Day I watch Gone with the Wind.

This year I noticed: Scarlet O’Hara’s relationship to her father, an Irish immigrant – the same diversity of national origin I share with my father. More specifically, Mr O’Hara taught Scarlett about the importance of land for the Irish – another parallel to my upbringing. When I attempt to understand my ties to homeland, there is no empirical answer; connections to homeland occupy transpersonal regions, ones I continually try to evaluate. I want to unsettle myself from habitual thinking. I realised, unlike Scarlett’s eventual return to her family’s plantation, I could never go back; I must go inward.